Mind Field By Damasu Have you ever acted? Acted as though you were care free and happy? I have. I do. Every damn day of my life. Sure, to everyone I'm the care free Irish psycho. But they don't really know me. No one knows me. Not Schwarz. Not Takatori. No one. If I were to suddenly kill myself, do you think anyone would notice? Do you think they'd care? Not damn likely. They'd all say the same fucking thing, "He was bound to do it someday." But let me ask you this… How can they…. How can you be so sure that suicide has ever crossed my mind? How do you know that this whole mentally ill thing isn't just an act to hide my true feelings? That's what I thought. You don't know. You couldn't possibly know. And you know what the funniest part is? You'll never know. That's right. I'm not going to just open myself up to anyone.  Everyone thinks that I have this whole `love equals pain in the long run` theory. Aren't I allowed to feel how I want? So what if I happen to feel for someone. It's not right that I have to keep on hiding my feelings and thoughts. Do you honestly think that I like to run around in a straight jacket? Or being hung upside down whenever I'm not being used as a killing machine?? No. No I don't like any of that. Yes. Knives, and other sharp objects do fascinate me. As does blood… The taste, scent, and sight of the crimson liquid. Maybe I am crazy to an extent. But isn't everyone? Doesn't everyone have a bit of a psycho hiding deep down inside? Don't you?